Voicemail Messages

Since I haven't wanted to have anyone hear my new voice when calling me, I've been screening any calls I get and responding by email or whatever.  I got two voicemail messages today though that I've been struggling with -- one not unexpected and one completely surprising.

The first was from my best friend Josh.  It was just the usual stuff -- Happy New Year, hadn't talked to you in a while, want to get together sometime soon, etc.  I've really been fighting myself all day, but I've decided that I finally have to come clean with someone on this.  I've been keeping this whole thing bottled up for so long now and I just need to unburden myself, if nothing else, or I'll go crazy.  Since Josh has been my friend for years, it makes sense for him to be the first one I tell about my transformation.

It took me a couple of hours to get up the courage, but I finally sent him an email invite to come over to my place to hang out tomorrow.  I immediately panicked after I hit Send, but deep down I know that this is the right thing to do for me.  Plus, Josh is an easy-going and accepting guy, so I'm trying to convince myself that it'll go well.  I've already started to put together a list of things I can think of to prove who I am since that's the first big hurdle.

As for the second voicemail message, I was completely taken aback.  It was Evan!  The message was as follows:

"Hi Lea.  It's Evan calling, the environmental tech who came by your house last week.  I actually called a few days ago but didn't leave a message.  But I thought I'd give it another try this time.  Anyway, this may sound a bit lame to do this over voicemail but I didn't want to let too much time pass before I reached you.  I wanted to see if maybe you wanted to get a drink or dinner with me sometime.  So if you're around and free, give me a call at XXX-XXXX.  I'd love to hear from you.  Hope to talk to you soon.  Bye."

I still don't know what to think or feel about this.