Last night, I had a surprise knock on my door. Looking through the peephole first, I was shocked to see my friend Josh on my front step. This was the first time I'd seen him since the blow-up when I told him about my transformation.
I opened the door with a hesitant "Hey."
Josh paused for a few seconds, staring at me, before speaking. "Sorry... I was still a bit surprised to see that," he said gesturing at me up and down. "Can I come in?"
"'Course," I replied and walked with him to my living room. "You want a beer?"
"More than anything, yeah," he chuckled nervously.
I got each of us a beer before Josh started, "You have no idea how sorry I am. I was a complete fucking ass the other day. I still don't know what the hell I was thinking. I freaked, plain and simple. I wish I could tell you differently but that's it. First, the idea that this could even happen threw me for a loop. I just couldn't bring myself to believe it. But even worse was that it happened to you. My best friend for years was suddenly a woman! I couldn't get my head around it and I guess my confusion came out as anger. You know how my temper can sometimes get the better of me. And I know I should have done this sooner, but I just didn't know what to say and I was embarrassed about what I did. So I'm really, REALLY sorry. I feel like such a jackass for treating you like that. I'm sure this has got to be unbelievably difficult for you and I apologize for just adding to it."
I was relieved more than I can say and I could feel myself welling up. "Damn it!" I said wiping a tear away. "Sorry, sometimes the emotions are getting the better of me these days. You really are an ass, you know that?" I joked. "I have to be honest with you though. You crushed me that night. I'd been living with this secret for a month and then you reacted like THAT. I wanted to just crawl in a hole. It took some time but I started to understand how weird it must have been for you too, so I get it. I really do. So I forgive you. And I'm so glad to finally be able to talk to you again. But Josh," I said, pausing, "if you ever do that to me again, I'll break your head in."
"Sure, you only say that now because you know I won't fight a girl," he replied. We looked at each other for a second or two, then immediately burst out laughing... and kept on laughing until my stomach muscles started to hurt.
I spent the next couple of hours fielding Josh's questions and generally filling him in as much as I was able. I steered clear of the feelings I was having about men though and completely avoided the topic of Evan altogether. I'd just gotten Josh back and I didn't want to freak him out any more than I had to. I figured I'd ease him into that discussion down the road. However I did explain to him how I seemed to be completely female, both physically and mentally, so I think he started to get a fairly decent picture of my whole situation.
Things were finally getting back to being more like they'd always been between us. We could talk and joke like before.
Finally at the end of his barrage of questions for me, I could see a smirk cross his face. "So I guess that just leaves the most important question," he said smiling. "Can I see 'em?"
"What are you talking about?"
"Those," he said, pointing at my chest. "You can't tell me that my best friend turns into a hot chick and grows tits and you're not even going to let me see them," he said, barely keeping a straight face.
"Funny," I said flatly.
"No, come on. How about a little squeeze?" he said before busting out laughing.
"Fuck you, you perv," I replied and threw a nearby magazine at his head. I was happy to finally be joking around with him again.
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