Is It Contagious?!

I'm completely freaking out!!  I didn't get a minute of sleep last night, since I couldn't stop worrying about this.

I hadn't spoken to Evan since Thursday night when he was over at my place.  I called him on Saturday just to talk but only got his voicemail so I left a message, not really thinking anything of it.  By late afternoon yesterday (Sunday), I still hadn't heard back from him and was starting to get a little concerned.  Maybe my asking him to slow down put him off more than I'd thought.  But now I wish it was as simple as that.

Around 7:00pm last night, I finally got a call back from him and he sounded terrible, like he could barely speak or concentrate properly.  He apologized for not getting back to me, but it turned out that he came down with some kind of bug or flu or something on Friday night that had him completely laid up in bed. He'd spent most of the last 48 hours sleeping in between occasional bouts of throwing up.

As soon as Evan described this to me, a chill ran down my spine and I thought I might be sick myself. The vomiting, the exhaustion -- this was exactly the same way things had started with me before my transformation!  I'd had the same issues before the change and attributed them to the flu at the time too.

I tried my hardest (I'm sure unsuccessfully) to force the sheer panic out of my voice, once I was able to pull myself together enough to speak.  Fortunately Evan wasn't really in any shape to be carrying on a conversation so I'm sure he didn't even notice.  I managed to stutter out that I was sorry he wasn't feeling well and ask him if he needed anything.  He thanked me politely and said that he just wanted to sleep it off, sure that it would pass soon.  So I let him go and hung up the phone.

I immediately began to tremble uncontrollably in a state of terror.  My mind was filled with a swirl of panicked thoughts.  Is it possible that my transformation could be contagious?  Evan and I had spent the whole evening in close contact Thursday night and engaged in more intimate contact too. Could that have infected him?  And that was the first time he'd spent that much time over at my house.  Is there something in the house that could have affected him?

In the middle of all this, it occurred to me that Josh had spent a few hours with me at my place earlier in the week.  I hadn't been in contact with him since then. Was it possible that he was affected too?  I pulled myself together as best as possible, so as to not worry him if everything was fine, and called his place. I only got his voicemail though, so I left a message for him to call me as soon as he got it.  I have yet to hear back from him.

I thought of Lauren too, since she stayed with me for a few days.  Luckily she answered the phone when I called.  It turned out that she was perfectly fine, but immediately picked up on the panic in my voice. After I explained my concerns, she was able to calm me down a bit.

As she'd said, in all likelihood, it really is just the flu or something and nothing more sinister.  But I just can't get this out of my head.  And I'm sure that I won't until I know for sure.  Maybe Lauren wasn't affected since she's a woman.  What if I infected Evan or Josh and now they will go through the same change as me?  How could I have been so foolish? What have I done?!